Where does the time go? It seems like just yesterday the doctor was telling me to calm down and push LOL! Sweet Pea will be 3 years old tomorrow!!! (Holding back tears)
A few posts back I promised that I would tell you all about my experience coming into motherhood. You are probably wondering what the big deal is, women have babies every day. Yes that is very true; however my experience was a little different. I was considered a high risk pregnancy as I have the condition known as hypertension, or high blood pressure. I was very cautious when we found out that we were pregnant as I did not want to suffer with any complications. This was the case up until my 33 week doctor’s appointment. On this particular day my blood pressure was extremely high and almost at stroke level. I remember my doctor calmly looking at me and telling me not to go back to work but to drive straight to patient registration at the hospital and the doctor on rotation would meet me there. I will never forget this day and the fear that overcame my body immediately. That was the longest walk to my car and trip across town that I’ve ever experienced. I called my husband screaming and crying, barely able to tell him what had happened and where I was headed. I followed that with a call to my mother and sister in the same manner which sent everyone rushing to the hospital.
It’s amazing to me how God places angels right where you need them. When I walked into the registration area there stood a member of my church waiting to sit with me until my husband arrived (I love my church family, will post about them at a later date too lol). After coming off the elevator, headed to labor and delivery for observation, there stood my aunt who was a nurse at the hospital. This is just how the next week went as I was placed on hospitalized bed rest. There was someone by my bedside to keep me calm and pray that everything was going to be alright. So at the end of the week, my blood pressure had regulated and I was expecting the doctors to tell me that I was headed back home and they would see me in 6 weeks for delivery. Not so. My doctor informed me that I had a slight case of preeclampsia and they were going to induce my labor at the end of the weekend. **Insert panic, anxiety, and fear** My heart dropped. What will happen to my baby? The nursery isn’t ready. Her car seat and crib are still on layaway. All of these thoughts as well as many others went thru my mind as you can imagine.
So the big day came where they started the induction process. I was going to meet my baby girl the next day. I gave it over to the Lord and tried to get my mind ready for the labor and delivery process. I informed the nurse to have the epidural ready as I did not want to experience much pain. Well to my surprise that didn’t go the way I planned either. After 2 failed epidurals and failed narcotics to knock out the pain, I was told that I was a rare case where the medicine does not work annnnnnndddd you guessed it, I would have to deliver Sweet Pea naturally! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This made me panic even more. Now I don’t remember the pain, just that there was a lot of unbearable pain and l laid in active labor for 14 hours without saying more than can I have more ice chips lol. The Lord was gracious enough to make it so I only had to push twice before Sweet Pea entered this world mean mugging the doctors and nurses LOL!
And just that quick I was a mother, my life was no longer centered around me. This little life was my responsibility to raise, nurture and take care of for the rest of her life. Since she was 6 weeks early, Sweet Pea weighed in at 4lbs 8ounces and 19 inches long. I was only able to kiss her on the forehead before they whisked her off to the NICU, where she stayed for the next 2 weeks. Now I thought that drive to the hospital was long, those 2 weeks were even longer. I do not wish this on my worst enemy! That was the most emotionally taxing 2 weeks of my life! The uncertainty of knowing when she was coming home, if she was going to have any developmental delays, it was just hard…but God once again. Sweet Pea shocked the doctors with her progression, she was only on breathing tubes for the first 8 hours of her life and when I was able to lay my eyes on her that next morning she was the perfect angel that I had asked God for.
So here we are today, 3 years later. She has not suffered any developmental delays and is progressing as a normal toddler should, to God be the Glory!! She keeps Mommy on her toes as she is very energetic and full of life! She never ceases to amaze me as everyday she does something new that still gives me that wow factor of “I’m her mom”. Although I’m a little sad that she’s growing up and starting pre-school soon (update coming in a few weeks), I am so thankful that God chose me to be her mother and yes that I was chosen to go through that experience. I may not understand why I had to endure it but hope that I am able to help someone else that may go thru the same situation.
Well I’m off to celebrate with Sweet Pea. Tomorrow is all about her! Hubby and I both took off from work so that we could dedicate the entire day to celebrate our blessed angel!
Happy 3rd Birthday Sweet Pea!!!! Mommy loves you!!!!