Okay so I’m a little in my feelings today. Not sure why I’m in a funk but I am and felt like writing to get it out and move on. Please spare me a few minutes to vent, thank you in advance…
I used to very much be an extrovert. Like was always in the mix, out and about, never met a stranger type girl. I can still carry that persona at times, but not nearly as often as I was say in my earlier twenties. These days I am more of an introvert. I like to stay in my bubble, in my comfort zone, quiet, not much of a socialite; don’t bother me I’m good type attitude. Sometimes that’s cool and perfectly acceptable, but there are other times that I feel like maybe it pulls me back from interactions with my peers.
There are times when I want to be around other people laughing, joking, and having a good time. But the relationships aren’t there which means neither are the invitations to various events going on. Most times it doesn’t bother me if I’m not invited to something but other times it does. Just being honest. Do I expect to be invited to everything? No. Will I go to everything that I’m invited to? No. But still sometimes it just feels good to still have the option, you know? Maybe it’s partly my fault for pulling back and isolating myself. I don’t know, it may just be my emotions speaking.
Whatever the case we are one day away from a new year and a fresh start. So time to flip this little flesh filled pity party and end it on a more positive note. I am going to strive to do better in the New Year. I cherish the relationships that I currently have and want to do better at nurturing those. In addition to that I am going to do better about coming out of my bubble and make myself more accessible. I may even take the initiative to reach out to some people and invite them somewhere! Hey if I’m going to do it, then I need to do it. Go hard or go home!! LOL! Now this may not happen overnight, but prayerfully I can slowly start to come out of my shell. There are many other things I want to work on in 2016 but this is a good start.
I pray that each and every one of you have an amazing New Year and hope that you will continue to follow my Girlfriends. and I on our journey.
Happy New Year!!!
Peace & Blessings,