So its been another CRAZY week for me! I have what feels like 15 different projects going on at work, I’m beyond behind on ministry event planning and ideas, my baby’s birthday is this weekend – have to make sure I have everything for her school birthday party, and then on top of all of that insert thoughts of doubt and slight anxiety about when things will finally come together so that my husband and I can finally say that we are home owners. It feels so close yet so far away. I’m ready to be in my own space again, but then concerned about leaving my mother and wanting to make sure that she will be okay once we leave. UGHHHHHHHHHH!! I need a way of escape. I need to remove myself from reality and steal away if only for a few minutes, something that will ease my thoughts and mellow me out….I NEED A DRINK!!!
Yes that is the answer, I need to find me a quiet corner booth at a nice tucked away restaurant where no one can find me. I don’t want to think about any to do lists, what has yet to be done, don’t want to feel any guilt or remorse, I just want to enjoy that moment and that drink!!! (Record sccccccccccccrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaatttttttttcccccccccchhhhhhhhhh)
Yeah right!!!!!!!!!!!! Who am I kidding? Sounds good right, I mean after all I can repent afterwards right? Maybe but my conviction is SO much stronger than that and won’t allow me to even pick up the menu to order a drink. Recently I’ve had this fight in my flesh more than I’d like to admit. That was my way of escape in the past, it was easy to get lost in my thoughts and look up and I’d gone thru a whole bottle of wine. Not good, and I don’t want to go back there. So in that moment of weakness after gathering my thoughts, I went back and read an old post of mine that helped snatch me back to reality, I Need A Drink, and I wanted to share it with you today.
Maybe you have this same struggle or something similar that is piercing your flesh. If so I ask that you read that old post with an open mind and allow it to minister to you. Some may get upset or offended and if so I don’t apologize. I promised to give you my truth and give you the real in all of blog posts and that’s exactly what I am going to do. Give it to you straight, no sugar added. So here’s to another round…
Peace & Blessings,