Service today was really eye opening. I’ve been reflecting over it all day since leaving the church earlier this afternoon. My Pastor just started a new series for the month of September “7 Things God Wants Me To Have”. The Word has been so rich, we’ve been on point 1 for the past 2 weeks…”A Restored Relationship” with the subtopic “I’m Saved.” It has made me take a serious look at my salvation. Today Pastor posed a question to the congregation. He asked for complete honesty in giving an answer. Today he asked how many people in the congregation were willing to have their throats slit or were willing to take a bullet in honor of Jesus Christ. He asked those that were ready to die for the cause to stand to their feet. I didn’t stand…

My first instinct was to stand up regardless you know to save face. I’m a leader in the church so its the right thing to do make it appear as though I have it all together right? Wrong. Honestly at that moment I couldn’t answer that question with a yes. Do I love Jesus yes, am I walking every day in a manner that represents Christ and will secure my spot in Heaven yes. But at that moment I imagined someone standing in front of me with a gun pointed to my head or a knife at my throat and a fear came over my body. Would I be brave enough to say yes I love Jesus and be killed or would I choke and deny Him like Peter?

death-1655381_1920I’m ashamed. I’m embarrassed. I feel bad. What is the purpose of proclaiming Christ if I can’t commit to fully giving up my life for Him? Its the least I can do right? He gave it all up for me when He took the abuse, the beatings, the nails in His hands, his feet, the crown of thorns on His head and ultimately His life on the cross. Why am I afraid to take a bullet for Him knowing that once its said and done I will open my eyes and see Him face to face. This thing really has me messed up ya’ll. I’ve asked for forgiveness. Father please forgive me and remove this fear. If I can boldly state my love for Christ in any other arena of life, surely I can be bold enough to represent Him in what could be my last few minutes of life. He deserves that much of me.

Now I want to ask you the same question. Would you stand your ground and profess that Jesus is Lord and Savior of your life or would you freeze like I did today and say nothing? I know this is heavy today, but its needed especially this day in age. We are getting closer and closer to the end of the world as we know it, Jesus is soon to crack the sky. There are Christians over seas that have already loss their lives in one of these very same situations and its not far from coming to the States. We have to get ready ya’ll, I mean really get ready. Its time to let go of the pettiness and the foolishness and get serious about the things of Christ. Its time to fully submit to Him, time to be completely SOLD OUT and proclaim its for God I live and for God I will die. The Bible is being fulfilled right before our eyes, again I reiterate Jesus is soon to come.

If asked this question again, my answer would definitely be yes. I will stand without hesitation with a smile on my face. I’m ready and I mean it this time. What about you? Are you REALLY ready?

Whoever does not carry his own cross [expressing a willingness to endure whatever may come] and follow after Me [believing in Me, conforming to My example in living and, if need be, suffering or perhaps dying because of faith in Me] cannot be My disciple – Luke 14:27 AMP

Peace & Blessings,

sig KT

 

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