Month: February 2017

This Is Me

I have a sarcastic sense of humor.
I love all things ice cream.
I can be extremely silly at times.
I love to dance.
When I sing, I sing loudly (and sometimes wrong lol)
When I love, I love hard.
I can have a bad attitude at times.
I have a problem with letting things go (Which I told you in my post Blessed And Unbothered)
I have insecurities.
Sometimes I speak out of turn.
I can forgive, but I struggle with the “forget”

These are just a few things that make me, me. The good, the bad and the ugly. Each piece put together uniquely design who you are getting to know…Katesha. As I get older, more of me, is revealed to me. I’m beginning to learn that although I’ve been me for 33 (almost 34 AHHH!!) years, there is still a lot that I am learning about myself. Every time that I think I have overcome something, I am quickly proved wrong and tasked with getting over and/or through it all over again.

Ever since I wrote the post about learning to let things go and not allowing “them” to bother me, I have been tested in this area constantly. Each time the test has been targeted in different areas of my life, which causes me to process and deal with each differently. I’ve learned that I internalize a lot. I really only open up to a very, I mean very, few people. Mainly because I like to deal with things on my own, but also because I do not want to have to process the opinions of others on top of my own which essentially end up confusing me more. Now I know that this may sound like a bit of an oxymoron as I am always telling others to open up and talk about it. But sometimes it is just easier to not say anything at all, speaking of me here.

I’ve really been working, or attempting to work on perfecting me in this season. I put a quote on my vision board that states ” I’m good at being me, but I want to become a better me”. I may have paraphrased that since it’s not in front of me at the moment, but I hope you get the gist lol. I’m finding that there is a lot of me that I just don’t like and that’s not always a good feeling. But in order to reach the ultimate goal of becoming more like Christ I have to deal with it, as ugly as it may be at times. And maybe, just maybe, that is what I find to be the most difficult part, looking at the (wo)man in the mirror, peeling off the layers that can no longer be attached to me.

I have a shirt that I love to wear that says “I’m fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalms 139:14), but question have I really dissected what that means to me personally…until now. I was made in His own image and He designed every intricate part of me, so why not embrace it, right? I have to learn to embrace every part of me, every season of life and when I hit the difficult parts, turn to Him to remove them or direct me on how to correct them. It’s just as simple as that. The road may not always be easy in this journey called life, but the pruning season(s) is(are) necessary in order for me to live out and walk in my purpose.

This is a day by day thing girlfriends, and I pray that you will take the time to evaluate yourself, just as I am. It is needed and something that we have to do to in order to remain humble and display/share the love of Christ to others.

He who gains wisdom and good sense loves (preserves) his own soul; He who keeps understanding will find good and prosper. Proverbs 19:8 AMP

Peace & Blessings,

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Never Knew A Love Like This

Happy Friday Girlfriends! As we embark upon the Valentine’s holiday, I wanted to talk just a moment about love. Wait! don’t exit the page, this is not a sappy love story about me and my boo. This is about a SISTERHOOD kind of LOVE! You still here? Okay good —

I’m sure some of you are familiar with the bible story of Ruth and Naomi…. Right? Maybe so? Well here is a brief refresher – Ruth was married to one of Naomi’s sons. Naomi was preceded in death first by her husband and then later by her two sons. Naomi and her two daughter-in-laws (Orpah & Ruth) decided to travel to Bethlehem from Moab. Along this journey, Naomi tells Orpah & Ruth that they must return back to their mother’s houses in Moab. Initially both of them explained to Naomi that she must go with them, but she refused. Orpah returned to Moab, but Ruth just couldn’t leave Naomi. Ruth understood the state Naomi was in, she was destitute and grieving the loss of her family during a famine. Ruth & Naomi continued to Bethlehem and Ruth would gather corn dropped by the workers in the fields for food.

Now, I’m stopping the story here because this should be all the precursor I need to express my point of sisterhood love. We all need to have a “Ruth spirit” – she understood the real needs of Naomi and decided she would help her even though it would be very hard and inconvenient. All of us at some point may experience a “Naomi moment” – where we’re truly in need of someone else’s help but don’t want to disturb their daily life dynamic or inconvenience them with our own personal issues/problems. Nevertheless, what I do know is that God’s Word is true and everything written in the Bible is for us to learn and abide by. The love presented by Ruth unto Naomi is not written for us to just give praise to Ruth, it is to show us how we are to love one to another.

So ladies when you know of a sister that’s going through a “Naomi moment” please have a “Ruth spirit” – one in which they can’t resist, one in which they know is genuine, one in which they don’t feel like charity, one in which they truly feel the LOVE OF GOD through you!

Please remember these Naomi’s on Valentine’s Day too, send them encouragement and love, because we never know when we could fall victim of a “Naomi moment.”

May the Lord repay you for your kindness, and may your reward be full from the Lord, the God of Israel, under whose wings you have come to take refuge.~ Ruth 2:12 (AMP)

Have a wonderful weekend!

Joy for Your Day,

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Tunnel Vision

Have you ever arrived at your destination and wondered how in the world did you get there? Like you know you got in the car, started the ignition, drove from point A to point B, but do not remember anything along the way. Crazy and somewhat dangerous, isn’t it?!?! This happens to me all the time! Shocking right? HA!

At the end of 2016, my job moved offices which caused a new, quicker (thank you Lord) commute for me. Recently on the drive in to the office one morning I took notice of this big beautiful house that sits off of the main road. Now I’ve been driving this same route every day since November and have never noticed this house before. It kinda shocked me because I was thinking how did you miss this? The reason would be 1 of 2 things, I was either on the phone with my hubby or lost in the midst of all of my thoughts. Maybe a better way to say it is that I had tunnel vision and was focused solely on my final destination, causing me to miss so many other “small” things along the way. Stick with me I’m going somewhere with this today.

We have made it to the second month of 2017. We have all of our goals, plans and our vision for the year still in front of us. The momentum to get it done should still be pretty high at this point and we are focused on getting the job done. We have made it up in our minds that we are going to keep our eye on the prize and steer away from distractions and/or anything that could get in our way. Think about it, how many times on a daily/weekly basis or just in general, have you said the statement “I’m focused” with only thoughts of ultimately completing your goal? I know I have thought it quite frequently and there is nothing wrong with that. You should be focused and striving to become distraction free. My concern today is when we become a little too focused. What do I mean by that? I’m glad you asked, let me explain.

Just as I missed that big beautiful house on the drive to and from work for the past 3 months, you (we) can miss vital pieces of the journey if we are only focused on the end result. Transparent moment. You know that I have been talking about and believing God to attain home ownership. There are days when I’m like, I want the house and I want it now. Forget everything else, Lord just open the door for me to get the house. Now I truly believe that this is already done in Heaven. My Daddy has already picked out the house, has the address and is waiting to drop the keys in our hand, but its a process. If I am only focused on the closing day and walking in the front door for the first time, I may have missed the “smaller” blessings He has worked out along the way. He has granted increase, new opportunities for growth in the way that we handle our financial business, He has granted us grace through my mother who has opened her home to us during this entire process. And even on the hardest of days, when it seems like a dream deferred, He is there to help pick up the pieces with His reassurance and His love.

So what am I saying today? Sometimes you just have to take a moment, a break so to speak, to look around and see all of the blessings surrounding you in this moment. You could be missing a blessing that is staring you right in your face. I encourage you today to stay focused to reach the goal, but at the same time keep your eyes, ears, and heart open to take in the blessing of His presence in your life. Remove the blinders, step outside of that tunnel and enjoy the journey and all that comes along with it. You are going to get there, it is going to happen, but only in His timing according to His will and His plan.

Keep your eyes open for God, watch for His works; be alert for signs of His presence. Remember the world of wonders He has made, His miracles, and the verdicts He’s rendered ~ Psalm 105:4-5 MSG

Peace & Blessings,

Blessed and Unbothered

Confession time…I have a problem that I’m working on and I need some help…I sometimes allow trivial things to bother me! Okay so you are probably like “ummmm, okay what’s the big deal”. Don’t worry I will tell you. When I say I let things get to me, I mean really get to me. Like I can’t stop thinking about it, end up dreaming about it and then wake up to the same thoughts that haunt me throughout my day.

Without giving too many details, I will give you a brief example. Recently I saw something on social media that didn’t sit well with me and it was something that sorta kinda affected someone super close to me. Ya’ll this thing bothered me wayyyyyy more than it should have! I talked to my husband about it and he told me not to worry about it and to just let it go. But I couldn’t! I sat up late that night thinking about it and began to pray to ask the Lord to help me shake it. My spirit man REALLY wanted to let it go, but that petty flesh wanted to have its way. I had all kinds of thoughts in my mind and shady ways that I could respond to reflect my feelings but something just wouldn’t allow me to do. I ended up tossing and turning all night with these thoughts running all up and thru my dreams! Ugh why do I allow such small things to bother me the way that they do? The next day it was still bothering me so I mentioned it to my mom and my sister. My Mama, bless her heart, always finds the positive in every situation and my sister said that she knew that it was bothering me and shared her thoughts. Yet through all of the good advice I still couldn’t let it go!!!!

So once again I went before the Lord and asked Him in the most sincere way to remove every thought about the situation including every petty, shady thought or action that may bubble up there after. (Side bar – Don’t you wish sometimes that you could be released to use the pettiness that resides within? Come on be honest!!! No, just me? HA! Okay scratch that from the record lol) Even with a sincere prayer ya’ll I still find this to be SO hard! Like I am so much better than this, but can I just take a moment to be transparent and share this thorn in my flesh? In these moments, every part of my flesh wants to showcase how I really feel about these trivial matters, but that something I mentioned above is really Someone who resides on the inside of me and just will not allow me to step completely out of character. Instead of being rude, although that is what I desire for the moment, I have to rise above all of that, shake myself and make sure that I represent the Christ inside of me and allow Him to shine through Katesha. As hard as it may be at times, it has to be done.

With this particular situation, I was definitely tested to see if I could do what was mentioned above. And I mean the next day type of test. Like really Dad, that’s how we rolling? lol And I’m not going to lie and say that my flesh didn’t leap just a little and wasn’t ready for battle because it was, trust me, but I took a deep breath, shook myself and acted like I was (am) my Father’s child. I am still a work in progress and find that moments like these continually keep me humble, remind me that I have not yet arrived and still have plenty of growing to do. But it also shows me just how far I’ve come because just a few years back I would have confronted the situation a COMPLETELY different way. But as my Grandma used to say “Thank God for Jesus!”

So I’m making it my mission to continue to work on this ever-present flaw in my life. I want to get to the place that when small, trivial things that really just don’t matter start to bother me I can look in the mirror and remind myself that I’m blessed and completely unbothered by it. But, as always, when I say it I want to actually mean it. That’s the hard part, but it has to be done! I need to get to a place where I’m unbothered by things that again just really don’t matter. If it’s not pushing me closer to Christ or adding money to my pockets, then again it just REALLY does NOT matter. Maybe I will add this as another mantra for the year….”I’m Blessed and Unbothered”.

Ya’ll pray for me, please! If you have struggled with this in the past and have overcome it, please share your thoughts on how you made it over! I welcome the advice!

[ A Thorn in the Flesh ] Because of the surpassing greatness and extraordinary nature of the revelations [which I received from God], for this reason, to keep me from thinking of myself as important, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan, to torment and harass me—to keep me from exalting myself ~ 2 Corinthians 12:7

trying to learn [by experience] what is pleasing to the Lord [and letting your lifestyles be examples of what is most acceptable to Him—your behavior expressing gratitude to God for your salvation]. ~ Ephesians 5:10

Peace & Blessings,

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