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My Precious Treasure

In a recent leadership meeting at church our Chief of Staff took a moment to give recognition to Sweet Pea. She talked about how much she has grown up and is always so well-behaved in meetings and around the church in general. That made me feel great as a parent but it was what she said next that really stuck with me. She went on to celebrate how Sweet Pea already has a heart for worship and servitude at such a young age. She celebrated how she is always ready to help mommy during our women’s sessions and is actually excited about it. I can’t really describe how much that statement filled my heart with joy. As I looked down at my bashful Sweet Pea and fought back tears, I realized I hadn’t really looked at her in that way before nor really recognized just how much she has grown not just physically, but spiritually.

To say that she is a church baby is quite the understatement. She is with mommy and daddy at every Bible Study, Sunday Morning Worship service, Children’s church event, leadership trainings, meetings…you name it, she’s there! Normally I pack her some activities to keep her occupied, but more and more she’s less interested in those activities and desire to be a part of the service. At our church during praise & worship we go down to the altar. I love being free in worship and when I’m not all the way caught up lol I love watching her as she worships in her own way. I’ve caught her a few times looking back at me to see what I was doing. If I have my hands lifted in worship, so does she. If I’m worshipping through my words, after looking back she will turn around and open her mouth to give praise to the Master. While I find it cute and have giggled a time or two, I now see how much she is starting to understand.

Before I would have to tell her to close her eyes for prayer or to lift her hands in worship, but now she goes for it all on her own. She even comes back home and carries on her own worship service with us as her congregation or with her dolls and stuff animals. She runs to grab her Bible to bring to one of us to read or to look at the pictures and “read” it for herself. She understands the power of prayer and will quickly ask for you to pray for her stumped toe or bumped knee lol. It all just makes me heart glad. My prayer is that she continues on this Christian journey and as she gets older goes for God like none before. I pray that her father and I will continue to be great examples of the love of Christ through parenting her and that we will slow down from every day life to cultivate that ever-growing flame in her heart. That we will walk the scriptures with her and ultimately lead her towards fulfilling her purpose in life. I don’t want her to have to wait as long as I did to give Christ a full surrender. I don’t want her to miss opportunities, I want her to be SO much better than me in every aspect of life.

I know that the special recognition was directed at Sweet Pea but I would like to believe that it was for me and Hubby as well. It was a wake up call that we need to do all that we can now to stir up all of the gifts and purpose that are within Sweet Pea. It is our duty to protect and shield her from anything that could detour her away from what God has placed over her life. Even at the age of 4. We have to be careful what she is exposed to and what we allow her to participate in. I know I’ve said it before but I am so thankful that my Father chose me to mother this precious treasure and I’m going to do all that I can to bring Him glory through her.

But we have this precious treasure [the good news about salvation] in [unworthy] earthen vessels [of human frailty], so that the grandeur and surpassing greatness of the power will be [shown to be] from God [His sufficiency] and not from ourselves. ~ 2 Corinthians 4:7 AMP

Peace & Blessings,

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Thoughts of a Real Mother…

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From time to time, I have these moments, that I once believed was “just me” when on the outside I appear to “have it together” and a smile on my face, but on the inside I’m SCREAMING. I love my children deeply, but some days I don’t feel like being an adult, or a mother for that matter.  Some days I miss being able to take a shower without little hands pulling the shower curtain back just to make sure I didn’t go too far.  Or to simply sit on the toilet without the both of them joining me as if I need moral support.  Some days I just want to lay in bed all day, watching adult t.v. shows (remember I’m a fan of ratchet t.v.) and eating a full plate without half of my food being eaten by the littles that suddenly become hungry again after their two plates.  Some days having the sole responsibility for how two other people end up is a bit much.   Even as I have these thoughts and type them, a part of me feels guilty.  Is this normal? Should I feel this way? What about those “perfect” moms?  At times I feel like I have to make a conscious effort to be a “good mom”. I don’t necessarily feel like it came “natural” to me.  Shoot…half the time I’m making things up as I go.  The crazy part about it is, despite feeling this way at times, when the children are away, I have no clue what to do or I’m instantly eager to have them come back.  The plus side, is they have no idea mommy doesn’t know what the heck she’s doing.  They have no idea about my sleepless nights or the planning that’s involved in trying to have a smooth evening after school.  So even on my “worst” day as a mom, I’m still their mommy and they believe I’m the only one that can drive this ship.  So I began to pray and the Lord reminded me that He’s got me and them. He reminded me of when I sat at Planned Parenthood when I just found out I was expecting my first born (I will share that experience another time), that if I trust in Him, he will always have her, that WE would lack for nothing.  To this day, God has not went back on that word.  Now I may have my “whoa me” moments, but we lack for nothing.  As I scrolled down my Facebook news feed, I saw this quote on My Motherboard page and I was inspired to share the thoughts of a Real Mother.

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When I Grow Up

As a kid you’re asked that inevitable question “what do you want to be when you grow up?” And as you transition through life and complete high school and/or college, the answer you gave 20yrs ago tends to not be so true in some cases. What I’m getting at here is that, I some times wonder if I would have chosen a different field of study or different type of job had someone really exposed me to what to expect after college. Now I’m 30+ years old and admittedly still not living out my “dream job” yet. I haven’t given up on it by any means, but I’m just saying! For me, as an adult I still struggle with where I’m supposed to be in my career. I tell God “its your will” every time I apply for a job and leave it at that. I want to be a good role model for my children and demonstrate what it means to work and earn money. I want to find my happy place, where my job and income are sufficient, where I love what I do and its FUN, exciting but yet challenging enough for me. I tend to struggle with needing a creative outlet. But as I said early, I’m NOT giving up yet! I’m excited for my future and where it will take my family and I. I’m ready to explore new things, smell some different air, see some different people, and just know that God is pleased with me in my career. I never want to be stagnate in what I’m doing or systematic/repetitive I need the thrill of learning something new. So today, I share publicly that I’m solely allowing God to use me and to move me wherever necessary to fulfill His will and carryout my expectations of my dream job. Ladies thank you so much for listening. Today’s just simply “one of those days” and I felt led to share what’s been pressing on my heart. I pray each of you have a beautifully blessed Friday and weekend! The Girlfriends will be back sharing more of life with you again on Tuesday!

Be Blessed!

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Learning To Let Go

Well ladies Sweet Pea is halfway thru her third week of summer camp! Can you believe it?!?!? So far she loves every aspect of it, although drop off in the mornings can still be a little shaky lol. So remember I told you in I Got the Blues…The Final Chapter that she would be attending a part time preschool. This schedule is working perfectly so far! It gives her a chance to interact with kids her age, expose her to the whole aspect of going to school and gives Nana a much needed break in the mornings. I only wish that this lasted all summer long! Since they did not have as many children sign up as they had hoped, she only attended 2 weeks in June and will attend 2 weeks in July. So it’s somewhat of a teaser for her. 😉

I know you are wondering how day 1 went for Sweet Pea and for Mommy and Nana LOL! I was a little nervous but didn’t want to show so Sweet Pea would be at ease. I told her Nana that she couldn’t come to drop off because I wanted that to be my moment. Well to my surprise she comes around the corner dressed saying she was coming LOL! Sike my boo boo huh! I guess she was getting me back from when I didn’t let her stay with me when we brought Sweet Pea home from the hospital, another story for another day lol Any who Nana already had tears in her eyes before we left the house and I made a pact with myself not to look her in her eyes so the tears I was holding in would not free themselves from my tear ducts! (It wasn’t easy lol) Sweet Pea was all chipper and excited until we walked in the gate of the school and she realized Mommy was not going to stay, insert screams and tears! You don’t know how hard it was for me to let her hand go and walk away! The school director looked at me and reassured me that she was going to be fine and they would see me that afternoon. Before I could calm myself down, I had to calm Nana down who had gotten out of the car looking thru the gate to make sure that Sweet Pea was okay. I had to force her to get back in the car! Hilarious!!

Upon pick up that day, Sweet Pea came around the corner with the biggest smile on her face and greeted Mommy with a huge hug! #InsertMommyTearsHere Whew sighs of relief! We made it thru day one. The director let us (yes Nana got out of the car and came in this time LOL) know that she did excellent and only cried for a minute or so after we left. Since that day her morning tears have ceased a little more each day and she’s now just a little hesitant to walk in. She has learned so much already, some good and some bad (kids pick up bad habits so quickly), but nonetheless she’s learning, growing and developing just the way that she should at this age. It’s time for Mommy to learn to let go and finally accept that Sweet Pea is growing up. Sigh…….

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Sweet Pea & Mommy all smiles at the end of Day 1!

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I Got The Blues…The Final Chapter

When I last left you with Part II of this series, Hubby, Sweet Pea and I had just finished touring a preschool. At the completion of that post I thought that we had found the right place for my daughter to develop and grow over the next 2 years, well I was wrong. After sitting down, talking and evaluating, Hubby and I had some reservations about the previous school we toured. I think we got caught up in the excitement of Sweet Pea going to school and didn’t fully consider the factors needed to best suit her development and growth. We decided to hold off before enrolling her and continued to seek guidance on where to place her. On the way to Sunday Worship Service one Sunday, I noticed a sign in front of a church that said “Now Enrolling for Preschool.” It sparked my interest because it’s literally within 5 minutes of my mom’s house. I did a little research and was immediately drawn into their program!!

So let me tell ya’ll about how much I LOVE what this school has to offer. You can probably already guess what my number one reason was…it’s CHRIST-centered!! What better atmosphere for her to be in than that of like-minded believers!! The second reason was that it is part time preschool, which means the cost for an entire month is about the cost of one week at the previous school!! (Hallelujah!!) Another biggie…they assist with finalizing the potty training process for the 3 year old class. Sweet Pea is doing well with potty training but needs a little assistance to close it on out lol. This was a major factor for us because the other school wanted to put her in the 2 year old class to help with potty training…NEGATIVE!!! Factor number 4; it has excellent ratings from current and previous parents. All of the reviews that I read all shared a common theme…their child was well prepared for kindergarten. (I’m getting excited all over again). After hubby and I discussed these factors we decided to go ahead and schedule a tour. Upon walking in I was very impressed by the cleanliness of the school and how well behaved all of the children were. Everyone was in their respective classrooms doing various activities. The student to teacher ratio is about 5:1, which is another factor that I LOVE!! This way Sweet Pea can have more 1 on 1 time with her teacher, which is what she is used to getting with her Nana. The school director was awesome and made us feel very comfortable while touring. I left Sweet Pea in the 3 year old class (no tears) while I went to tour the rest of the school and meet the teachers. Upon my return Sweet Pea was sitting at a table playing with Play Dough with a newly found friend. When she saw me she looked up, waved, and said “Bye Mommy”. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh that sealed the deal right there! She was comfortable with her surroundings and ready to see what this place was all about!

If you haven’t guessed by now, Sweet Pea is now enrolled for the 2015-2016 school year and will be starting in September! They also offer a summer camp program for about 4 weeks, which she will also be participating in to warm her up to the idea of going to school. So Girlfriends, I think I’m over the Blues for now (we will see how I feel on her first day of summer camp lol). I’m excited to see my baby off to school and to participate in any and every activity that I am able to attend! Keep us lifted as we get ready for this new adventure!!

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I Got the Blues…Part II

Girlfriends…I made it through the tour without crying, BUT almost had a small emotional outburst LOL! However I was a “big girl” and swallowed it back down. I did not want to embarrass my husband, nor myself. Even though I think the program director saw it all over my face and is used to those types of reactions from new preschool/daycare moms. This is a huge step! It seems like just yesterday she was 2 weeks old and we were bringing her home from the hospital. (That’s another story that I will share with you all at a later date).

So on to the story about the actual tour. Overall I was very impressed by the school, their curriculum and staff. I will withhold from sharing the name of the school for now. Upon our arrival, the director was at the door with a huge smile on her face waiting to greet us (Love that!) Instantly she made me and baby girl feel comfortable. My pooh was a little intimidated at first and literally hugged my leg the first 15 minutes of the tour. LOL! Once we started touring the classrooms she started to open up a bit and showed interest in the toys and various activities going on. It wasn’t until we visited with her potential class on the playground that my almost outburst occurred. While hubby and I were talking to the director I noticed she slowly inched away from us and closer to the other kids. Before we knew it she was in the midst of the kids, engaging in their block activity, without looking back at mommy and daddy. Okay I’m getting emotional again!!! No but like seriously 🙁

We left her on the playground for a little while to go over some paperwork. When we returned to let her know it was time to go, she looked as though she was right at home and wasn’t ready to leave her new found friends. She actually had a fit when Daddy picked her up so we could go. This is the reassurance I needed (well we both needed) to see that she is indeed ready to start school. I just don’t know if Mommy (nor her Nana, another post for another day lol) is truly ready for this. I want her to grow up, but then again I want her to always be my sweet baby girl. What am I going to do when its her actual first day….then her first day of kindergarten…first day of high school…prom….graduation…..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! I need your prayers PLEASE!!!!! I guess I just have to suck it up and realize she’s growing up and know that she will always be my baby girl. I (we) will get thru this!!!

Don’t worry, there will be a Part III coming soon after her first day, or maybe first week. Stay tuned girlfriends!!!

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I Got the Blues…Preschool Edition

Okay so I’m feeling some type of way. I just scheduled my baby’s first preschool tour and I’m trying not to cry!!!! So I guess you’re wondering if I’m a stay at home mom, I wish!! I have been blessed enough to have my mom care for my daughter since she was 7 weeks old. Well my baby will be 3 in April and it’s about time that she branch out from Nana’s care and start on her journey as a big girl in school. (Anyone have any tissue??) 🙁

I’m super nervous. I have so many questions…how will she adjust? Will she cry the whole day? Are they going to feed my baby properly? Will she make friends? Will she get sick her first week? Okay take a chill pill Katesha!!! (Breathe in, breathe out…woooo saaaaaaaaa) You all will have to bear with me; this is all new to me!!!!

How do I go about not being the over bearing, over protective mom? I do not want to be the mom that is always popping up at school checking on her baby! Just so that you can get a feel of where I’m coming from, she’s almost 3 and if she naps too long I still check to make sure she’s breathing LOL!

So I want to pose a question? How have you all dealt with your child’s first day of school? I’m open for any and all suggestions.

Now go easy on me girlfriends, you know I’m emotional! 😀

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